May 11, 2011
I walk through the city.
As people struggle home;
I’ve been told to tear it off, to shed:
Victorian flats full of mice,
right side driving,
girls bare legs in the winter –
shed it all like gift paper;
but I don’t know if I can
and I don’t know if I should,
will it eat me alive if I stay?
but middle class peace suffocates, even from afar?
but homeland is darkness too, of another kind?
I gasp for breath on the tube,
another mill horse looking for shoes and a carrot
just like the people
all around me, carrying
Their own. Problems:
that one’s fat, that one’s overworked, that one can’t get a date,
that one can’t afford school tuition, that one has a daughter that
blows her boyfriend every night on the other side of a paper thin wall,
all of us bees,
pollen of mediocrity and ticking clocks and advertising dreams and weekend hours;
Then this time frame closes
and I get off the train, and the fat lady gets off and some of the others too.
They say that there are no
but that is a lie –
just throw a rock, or buy a lottery ticket
And you’ll hit one for sure